In my first post, I promised you, that some day I would tell you the story of David and I think now, that Lucas and David’s 7th birthday arrives is a good time to share it. So settle back, because this is the longest post I ever wrote and grab a box of tissues because I guarantee you will need them .
I was 22 and my husband 25 years old, we were happily married for 3 years and thrilled to find out that I was pregnant. We wanted a baby so bad but humanly thinking,the time was not right , because I was still in college. So we prayed and asked God when will the right time be ? When were we going to have a baby ? One day I read in the bible the story of the Shunammite Woman in 2 kings 4 from verse 8 to the end . As I read, verse 16 spoke to me very clearly : Then he said, “At this season next year you will embrace a son.” “you will embrace a son “, This scentence touched my heart , God spoke to me so clearly in that moment . Many of you won’t believe that or can’t imagine that something like this can happen, but deep in my heart I felt it. It is a feeling you can’t describe , you just know it ! So I wrote down the date in my bible near this verse. It was August 30th. Time passed and in October we found out I was pregnant . It was NOT planned ! We wanted it so bad but like I sad , I planned to finish school first.
I took the test and there it was , two lines . I instantly knew it has to be a boy and because me and my husband planed long before, that we would name out first son Lucas, he already had a name .
So we went to our first dr appointment and the surprise was big, when we found out we were having twins !!! Yes, fraternal twins. We were shocked , because we did’t expect that . I remembered what I read in the bible, that I will hold one boy in my arms. How can this be ? We were sooooo happy, but this tought of what God told me just didn’t leave my mind .
So the weeks passed and I thought maybe I don’t have to take it literally. Maybe it’s 2 boys. Time passed and I didn’t really think much of it anymore . Inside my belly grew two wonderful babies. One was always bigger then the other and we knew from the beginning which one we named Lucas and which one David .
One day a friend asked me if I knew Bogdana, because she also had twins and they were premature at 29 weeks. I didn’t know her, but because I was curious I looked her up on Facebook . Something about her touched me. These photos in the hospital with these tiny babies … So little, but so beautiful. I felt close to her from the beginning, before I knew that there will be something more that will bring us togheter .
When I look back now, I can see clearly how God guided me all the way ! He guided me to know Bobi, to hear about her story, to look up every information on the internet about premature babies . Bobi thank you for beeing my friend 🙂
It is amazing how God brings people together and how He puts certain people in your life. We even have the same birthday, can you belive that ?
So at 32 weeks my water broke and we rushed to the hospital. I remember that I was afraid from the birth itself , but I was not afraid that they were premature. I was soo familiar now with what it meant to have premature babies and I was just happy, that we will finally see our babies , knowing that I will have to stay in the hospital for a while and hoping that there will be no complications after.
They decided I needed a c section because it would be safer for the babies . I don’t know what happened because I fainted and woke up the other day.
Lucas was born with 1.650 and 41 Cm and David with 2.100 g and 43 cm . The first day he could breath on his own but his chest was showing strong irregular movements and was swollen. And in the middle of the night he had a cardiorespiratory stop. They moved him to the neonatal intensive care unit and they told us, that he had amniotic fluid in his lungs and that he can’t eliminate it . His condition was bad and every day he was having cardiorespiratory stop in the five days he lived. I can remember they told us, that if he would live, he will be disabled because his lack of oxygen in the brain . Many churches prayed for him , for us, and I hoped until the last moment that God would heal him.
But He had other plans .
David left – Lucas right
The meaning of the name David is – loved by God . How God guided us even with the names . He loved David so much he took him to Him .
The meaning of Lucas is – born into the light . And he was light , and is light . In our deepest pain and grieve , he brought light into our hearts .
This experience was very painful and it took a long time until the pain went away. But how could I be upset with God ? He guided me all the way, He told me I would hold one boy in my arms, he guided me to meet Bobi to be informed about premature birth and preemies and he also guided us who to name Lucas and who David.
Lucas and Abel know about David . For us it was very important, that they know they have a brother in heaven and that one they we will meet him again ! Lucas corrects us every time we say we have 3 children , that we have four .
The thought of how it would have been if David was still here remains , but we know he is in a much better place, a place where he is before the throne of God and serves Him day and night, a place where hunger, thirst, death, mourning, crying, pain and tears does not exist. David brought heaven a little closer to us and we look forward to meeting him again someday .
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